On the last day of 2015, this is really the perfect time to write about my hopes and fears. Since the new year of 2016 is almost upon us, I might as well mention my hopes and fears overall, not only in general but for the new year as well.
As 2016 quickly approaches, my hope is that I will finally begin my career. For months now, I’ve been adequately searching for a job in my field. While there have been moments where I’ve stopped searching due to events in my life beyond my control, I want this to happen in 2016 more than anything. I know some of my friends are already fortunate in being able to accomplish this, but I want this more than anything. I want to start my career already and start my life. But I know in order to do this, I need to continue looking, searching even when things are tough.
I also hope that this year will be better than the last. 2015 has been quite a year. A year full of memorable moments, full of things I didn’t expect to happen and full of changes in myself I didn’t expect to experience.
A lot has changed in 2015, things which I didn’t expect to happen. My Mom finally got through her divorce with my step-dad which took many years to get the process going. Also, a lot of historical events occurred here in South Carolina. The Confederate flag was taken off the State house grounds after the shooting at the church in Charleston and South Carolina faced a flood that had us under boiled water advisory for about two weeks and many people without homes.
2015 has been a year of change, both good and bad. I also participated in National Novel Writing Month this November and wrote more words in a month than I expected after dealing with a loss I wasn’t expecting. So one of my hopes now is for 2016 to be a better year than 2015.
However, I can’t talk about some of my hopes without mentioning fears. Because I am worried about some things. For one, I’m scared of things changing completely. Not because I’m scared of change, but because things have already changed for me in the last couple months that I’m scared of things turning further in a negative direction.
I’m also scared of the future. I don’t know what the future brings for me and I hate not knowing how some things in my life are going to go.
But at the same time as 2016 looms closer, I need to let go and become more optimistic. Because even though I don’t know where my life is heading, I know for one thing that everything will be alright.