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Writing Prompt: Hopes & Fears

On the last day of 2015, this is really the perfect time to write about my hopes and fears. Since the new year of 2016 is almost upon us, I might as well mention my hopes and fears overall, not only in general but for the new year as well.

As 2016 quickly approaches, my hope is that I will finally begin my career. For months now, I’ve been adequately searching for a job in my field. While there have been moments where I’ve stopped searching due to events in my life beyond my control, I want this to happen in 2016 more than anything. I know some of my friends are already fortunate in being able to accomplish this, but I want this more than anything. I want to start my career already and start my life. But I know in order to do this, I need to continue looking, searching even when things are tough.

I also hope that this year will be better than the last. 2015 has been quite a year. A year full of memorable moments, full of things I didn’t expect to happen and full of changes in myself I didn’t expect to experience.

A lot has changed in 2015, things which I didn’t expect to happen. My Mom finally got through her divorce with my step-dad which took many years to get the process going. Also, a lot of historical events occurred here in South Carolina. The Confederate flag was taken off the State house grounds after the shooting at the church in Charleston and South Carolina faced a flood that had us under boiled water advisory for about two weeks and many people without homes.

2015 has been a year of change, both good and bad. I also participated in National Novel Writing Month this November and wrote more words in a month than I expected after dealing with a loss I wasn’t expecting. So one of my hopes now is for 2016 to be a better year than 2015.

However, I can’t talk about some of my hopes without mentioning fears. Because I am worried about some things. For one, I’m scared of things changing completely. Not because I’m scared of change, but because things have already changed for me in the last couple months that I’m scared of things turning further in a negative direction.

I’m also scared of the future. I don’t know what the future brings for me and I hate not knowing how some things in my life are going to go.

But at the same time as 2016 looms closer, I need to let go and become more optimistic. Because even though I don’t know where my life is heading, I know for one thing that everything will be alright.

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Writing Prompt: Dreams

Dare to Dream

With this writing prompt, I feel like I can talk about almost anything from the dreams I have at night whenever I’m asleep to my dreams in a career. And while I would like nothing more than to talk about both of these, I think I will focus this writing prompt on talking about my dreams in a career, whenever I get one.

I want to write. I want to write for an audience of people who will enjoy my work and write in a way that inspires others to want to write.

I want to write because I enjoy writing. The only problem is that I don’t know yet where I want to work and what with writing I want to do.

I know I want to one day publish a novel of my own. To write a story so amazing and empowering that others would want to talk about it with those they love. To write a story with amazing characters, people we could all relate to in some way or another. To write real characters, people you can easily get emotionally attached to if something were to happen to them.

I don’t know where I want to work because I feel like that is so limiting. There are many possible places I could end up working at that narrowing my options down sounds boring.

I know I want to write. I love writing so much that I know having my own work published would be a dream come true for me. It would be everything I work hard for and then some. But where I want my work published and in what format is still a complete mystery to me.

I know I enjoy blogging. Ever since I’ve created my blog, I realized how much I enjoy blogging, writing to my own audience in a format I myself can create. Communicating with people who enjoy writing as much as I do and have their own interesting stories to tell. I feel like blogging has become a part of my life these past couple months and I enjoy every minute I get to post a story to my blog.

I would love very much to pursue blogging as a career, but have no means on how to get started. I know the first direction I need to take is a course on web design so I can get a better understanding of how html formatting and all of the other stuff that comes with it works. But other than that, I’m at a loss of where to go.

But I can see blogging becoming an even bigger part of my life. Because blogging allows me control over my writing and allows me to decide what I want to publish whenever I want to publish it. And I enjoy doing it so much now that I can’t imagine myself not doing it anymore.

But I know it’s not everything I dream about for my career either. I know blogging is something I can do so I can keep myself writing, honing and sharpening my skills. But I need to figure out what else I want to do with writing.

I know my love of writing is all I need to find the career that encompasses my dreams.

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Writing Prompt: “Don’t Cry Because It’s Over” Quote

Dr. Seuss Quote

Lately whenever I see this quote, I always end up thinking of the same thing. I can’t help it; my mind can’t stop thinking of it.

While I’m sad that it’s over, I really should be happy because it happened. But sometimes, it’s hard because I didn’t want it to end. It was one of the best things that happened to me this year.

But it’s over and there’s nothing I can do to change it. I just need to accept the fact that I did the best I could to make things work but it wasn’t enough. So instead of being sad and gloomy about it, I need to smile, remember all the good things that came out of it.

While the situation I find myself in isn’t the most ideal, I have to accept what’s happened. But I also need to start moving forward, getting hopeful that it can happen again.

And I am. Hopeful that I’ll have these feelings for someone again. Hopeful that things will work out the way they should, even if I have a hard time accepting it right now.

A new year is coming and I sense good things to come with it. I sense a change in the wind, I can feel it in my bones. A new year is coming and I am nothing more than looking forward to it.

So while I’m sad over things I can’t change, I’m hopeful because it happened.

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Turning 23: Celebrating Another Year of Life

23-birthday

I know this post might seem silly, but I wanted to do it anyway. My older sister Laney inspired me and I thought it would be a unique idea to write a blog post about turning 23 and talk about life and growing up.

My 23rd birthday was actually a couple days ago, on Thursday, January 14th.

As weird as this might sound, I still get excited about my birthday. Even though it means getting older and getting more responsibilities, I still get excited over my birthday because it is a moment that I find myself reflecting on life. On the life I’ve lived and on how quickly things can change.

Me After Zumba

Probably one of my favorite pictures of me that I can find. Which is kind of weird because I’m sweaty and gross in this picture after going to the gym to do Zumba.

Over this past year, a lot has changed for me. In February, I met the man I fell deeply in love with attending his band’s concert that my friend had invited me to because she was friends with him. Then in May, I graduated from Columbia College with my Bachelor of Arts degree in English Writing for Print and Digital Media. For the next couple months, I struggled without success to get a job in my field only to start working in my school’s dining hall once again while continuing my search. While searching for a job, I started this blog in July because I felt inspired to start blogging and wanted to continue writing while I continued my job search. I then began falling on hard times in October after the man I deeply fell in love with broke up with me, crushing my heart completely. I used this heartache in November when I began writing my novel for National Novel Writing Month The Swan & the Crow in the hope that writing about my experience would start me on the path to heal. And I definitely feel like it made a difference because it allowed me the opportunity to distract my thoughts from reality and get through the pain I was experiencing. However, I didn’t heal completely from it and am still working on that to this day, though I’m much closer to it now than I was then.

It wasn’t until December that I really felt life was finally turning around for the better. The time I had off from work for Christmas helped because I got to spend time with my lovely family and realized I have everything I need. I realized it was time to begin letting my anger, frustration, and sadness go and to forgive him, despite everything. To realize that being single is okay because I might not be ready to spend the rest of my life with someone just yet.

And as weird as this might sound, thinking about my birthday brought some of these thoughts on. Made me optimistic about the months to come and hopeful that life isn’t over for me just because I’m not in a relationship right now.

My birthday has a weird way of bringing out the best in me. Puts a light pep in my step and allows me to see what’s coming next in my life in a whole new light.

CC Graduation Image with Maria

A picture of me with my friend Maria after graduation.

I also get excited about my birthday because it is the celebration of life. Of getting the chance to live another year longer, getting to reach an age some people don’t necessarily get the chance to experience and being thankful for getting to this point in life.

Yes, being an adult is hard and I don’t have my life completely together just yet. I still don’t have a job in my field, getting the opportunity to write, but I do still have a job and a home to live in while I search along with a supportive family and friends who care about me.

But despite that my life isn’t completely perfect, I still have a reason to celebrate life. In the end, that’s what really matters and is a good reason to celebrate.

So Happy 23rd Birthday to me and may you all enjoy the month of January!

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