My heart feels so shattered right now. This week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. My best friend, who I’ve known since my freshman year of high school, passed away on Wednesday, February 13th. She was fighting for her life against cystic fibrosis, a genetic disease that affects a person’s lungs and their ability to breathe, the pancreas and other parts of their body.
While I knew this day would eventually come (people with cystic fibrosis don’t have a long life span, most nowadays live until their 30’s and there’s still no cure), it still doesn’t make it any less hard for me to deal with the grief I’ve been experiencing since her passing. She was a good friend, someone I truly trusted with all my heart and soul, who cared a lot about everyone she encountered. She was strong too, always putting on a brave face even when she was in pain fighting against this terrible disease. In our friendship, I always felt like I could truly be myself around her and could talk to her about anything and everything.
She was the best friend I could ever ask for. It feels like just yesterday we were talking and creating memories together. I remember moments from high school, like some of the classes we had together and when we’d eat lunch on the senior balcony during senior year. Also, recent moments too from during and after I was done in college, like when we went to the zoo together with her oldest son, went to the beach with another friend because she loved the ocean, and whenever I went with her when she decided she wanted tattoos. There are so many other moments that stand out to me in our friendship, but these are some of the best ones. Now, she’s no longer here and I feel like a piece of me went with her when she passed away.
I know the next few weeks will be extremely difficult for everyone she cares about. She’s left behind so many good people who care so much about her along with a wonderful husband and her two young children who’ll now live without a mother. But I feel extremely lucky and grateful to have met her and know that our friendship will always hold a special place in my heart. I know one day, I’ll get to meet her again very soon, and that lessens the pain of her loss. Until then best friend, I want you to know I love you so much and can’t wait to see you again.
If you’re reading this post, if you can, please donate to the Go Fund Me page me and a couple of her friends have set up to help her husband and kids during this difficult time or donate to your local cystic fibrosis organization in honor of my best friend’s memory.
My heart is hurting, but I’m glad my dear friend isn’t suffering anymore.
February 16, 2019 at 8:58 pm
Sending all of my love, prayers, and positive vibes to help you cope with such a tragic loss.
LikeLiked by 1 person
February 16, 2019 at 9:00 pm
Thank you very much. That means so much to me right now.
LikeLiked by 1 person
February 16, 2019 at 10:48 pm
My heart goes out to you. I never know what to say concerning grief, but what I will say is that my thoughts and prayers are with you. May God comfort and soothe your grieving heart. 🙏
LikeLiked by 1 person
February 17, 2019 at 1:20 am
Thank you very much. I sincerely appreciate the kind words.
LikeLiked by 1 person
February 17, 2019 at 11:27 pm
I am so sorry to hear that. It is not an easy thing to deal with. I wish you, her family and friends all the love and support during this trying time.
LikeLiked by 1 person
February 18, 2019 at 5:18 pm
Thank you very much. Your kind words are deeply appreciated.
LikeLiked by 1 person
February 18, 2019 at 10:28 am
I am so sorry for your loss, sounds light the world will be missing a great person. I hope your pain becomes easier to cope with. Sending love, thoughts and prayers.
LikeLiked by 1 person
February 18, 2019 at 5:20 pm
Yes, she was a very great person. A very good friend who I’ll miss deeply. Thank you for the well wishes, I deeply appreciate it.
LikeLiked by 1 person
March 6, 2019 at 1:29 am
I am so sorry for your loss, Raney. I can imagine just how painful it is to loose someone so dear. Sending prayers your way. Hugs.
LikeLike
March 7, 2019 at 12:30 pm
Thank you very much Diana! I’m doing okay now for the most part. I still miss her and am sad she’s gone. But I’m glad she’s no longer in pain.
LikeLike